You are at the stage of life where everyone expects you to behave like an adult. You are on your late fifties so I presume you have gone through a lot what life has to offer for all of us. I know life does not stop giving lessons, that is, if we truly ‘live our life’, until one meet his expiration which is death. With death, we can do no more. Dream no more. Think no more. Importantly, think and act no more.
I am saying that everyone expects you to behave like one because as we all know, when we aged we are beginning to look things in their proper perspective and deal people with heart, at least. Heart which others has not been use properly in their early life because of being young and agitation especially influenced by outside factors re our environment. What I am talking here is that no one is being positioned as ‘elders’ which usually functions as counsels in their respective family or community and you are very much aware of that, aren’t you?
But I am wondering why you behave like a teen-ager who is just beginning to feel the world? Apparently, you are using your position to influence those who are under your supervision. You are trying to bribe them through food and out-of-town adventures. I know you deeply and I can perfectly say that you cannot fool people all the time. What I am trying to convey here now is please stop corrupting or buying off your subordinates because you hate somebody. To place that somebody in isolation. In any way I see it, you gain nothing except that you behave like an animal. An animal that does not have feelings toward his own kind. You are the one who suffers, aren’t you?
The somebody you want to isolate is not affected in the tiniest meaning of the word. You can buy foods for your peers breakfast till dinner (of course with overflowing snacks in between) and no doubt for that. Of course, there’s no argument with that. You have all the money and resources for that. Now, why not use your resources and money for more valuable things like doling it out for typhoon victims or just spend it with your loved ones? Why do you have to go out of your way just to isolate somebody? Instead of doing destructive moves towards your peers, will you please instead look closely to yourself and your family?
As I have said, we are not given enough time to do the things we want to do. A lifetime is inadequate for a person who wants to help out the needy. If you could live loving all the people around you then do it and start it today. Stop hating and fight those negative emotions you are holding in your heart which eventually is eating your whole being. Be a good example to your peers. Live your life lightly and with this, I assure you, you will aged gracefully and will be remembered meaningfully.