Ever had that feeling of turmoil? The feeling of anger which almost resulted to hatred? The feeling which you have not imagined all of your life? A feeling which made you think to end your life because of hopelessness? The feeling of being alone in this journey? The feeling of being threshed out? The feeling of being dumped out all of a sudden? The feeling of being hanged out on air without any reason? Without any explanations? The feeling of sudden changed that caught you unaware? The feeling of rejection? The feeling of being lied upon very hard? The feeling of cold treatment? And all these actuations came from the very person who is your life, you had offered your life completely and had loved unconditionally?
It is not easy. This is the hardest thing one can experience. You had never imagined this to happen even in your wildest hallucination. This would be the darkest time of your life ever. This is a feeling that even Webster’s dictionary hasn’t listed down. No words can ever define. No artist can express it either. No one can try to console the feeling. You seem to be lost. Your brain will just freeze and stay there. It will even refuse to function. All you can do is asking yourself why. All you can do is wonder what went wrong. How did it happen? Of course, things change but you also know that there should be factors for that certain change. There has to be a reason. But in your case, nothing can be explained of. It was so abrupt it caught you off-guarded. It was anguish. A mind-torturing situation. All explanations you get are all lies, hard lies. It is like you are forced to take the bitterest pill in town. You are blamed. The doer blamed himself too.
Now if matters like this happen to you, what do you think your reactions will be? Your decisions will be? Your considerations will be?