If you are not satisfied with the way your choice of life is going, then it’s high time you sit back and think. Think where it had all started. Think what part of your life you do not like for the time being.
When you were a high school student, did you have the time to enjoy the what we call high school life which offers to most of the most exciting phase of our life? Are you one of those who cheated during exams with the collaboration of the whole class which made your class adviser so annoyed she almost dropped in the roll the whole class? Well, it should really be exciting because after all, your whole class has marched and graduated with flying colors to the amazement of your adviser. But she could not do anything about it because all other teachers agreed that it should not only be the reason to cause the whole class as drop-outs nor kick-outs not blacklisted. But of course, your class was obliged to do some community service and has to undergo extra-curricular training for that misconduct.
Came the time you enrolled in college. It was a natural thing to cause you a little nervous cause entering college life is entering a more higher phase of your life being a person but with excitement because you know that this stage, you somehow gain your little freedom.
At this stage, you can feel your independence and as a start on, you had the choice which course you will be enrolling. Which group of people you will be hanging out before, during and after class. Following/trending what’s in as far as fashion is concerned. Much more, you are now free to enter a relationship with the opposite sex and yes, you indeed explore and enjoy hopping from one relation to another while you kept one who provided all your material and biological needs. You really had a grand time enjoying your freedom in a pig-headed way. You really use your head, lady.
Until one day, you realized you had stepped out your boundary lines. You suddenly figured out you were pregnant fathered by one of those men you were hanging out at nights. Worse, you cannot even pinpoint who made you pregnant. Courageous as you were and of course, with your family’s understanding and caring, you had let the little innocent one see the light.
At the age of 19, you mothered a baby boy. Great for you and your family, you let the little darling enjoy the right to be born. Let him see the light. Let him feel how beautiful life is.
Having the little innocent one see the light has its own prize because the man who gave all your material and financed your studies had given you up out of disappointment, shame and disgust. He even cursed you and your family and his self. It was an act of straightforward betrayal, lady.
That is the very reason why you hadn’t finished your college. It was a big waste of opportunity if only you had used your head wisely. Unwanted pregnancies should have been a warning to one’s life and also be a signal to make one’s life be put right. But because you are wrong-headed and bolshie, instead of putting your life into order, you doubled your stubbornness and goes more wild among the opposite sex. Again, you involved yourself men after men while living/maintaining a regular partner. Much worst this time, since you go after married men. You are now out to wrecked families. Because you are still young and flirtatious in your own way, you managed to be very good at your craft of alluring these men.
God forgive your doings, young lady. You must start pulling up yourself and put your life up what is right and what is decent. Find a man who got no obligation/family/wife,daughter/son so no one will suffer and no one will be inflicted with pain. In the first place, your life was your choice. No one shooed you to do that. Not even these married men. It was you who is liable of what you had been and what you are today. You set your life into upright and righteous. It is not too late for you to do that yet. You have much time to rectify.
Mother your son. Set your life straight. Live decently. You have a supportive family and friends. You are now an earner. Be concern with your child’s future. And yours too. Learn to thank God for that. Learn to call HIM whenever you are feeling weak to fight your weaknesses. Be strong to fight the evil within you. You must overcome your weakness. You have to work out your life. No other person will do it for you other than yourself. Take charge and the time is NOW.